I've been living out of a suitcase for the past 5 months. Actually, other than a couple months at my parent's house, I've been living out of suitcase for the past 2 years.
When I was at my parent's house in Hawaii, I finally had all my stuff under one roof, in one room! Unbelievable. Eventually though, life called me back to New York and I needed to pack everything up into boxes again. I packed my two suitcases expertly to accommodate all kinds of situations and seasons - from winter job interviews to summer festivals. All of it - two suitcases.
I got sick of my clothes within two months.
It has now been five months and I literally daydream about my clothes packed away in boxes at my parent's. I dream about buying new clothes. I admit that I have even written out Wish Lists. All I can think about lately is what I want to buy, buy, buy.
I am finally moving into my own room for the next year. So this morning I upturned all my clothes onto my bed to repack everything to move. I began to feel this growing sense of awe - so many clothes. So many shirts, pants, skirts... I look at my Wish List and realize that everything I want to buy is what I already have in my suitcase.
And yet I have this insatiable need for something new, something different, something fresh.
And if I have that "something," then I will be happy and content.
I have only to look at my beautiful and variegated selection of clothing all folded neatly back into my suitcase for me to realize that it's me that is not seeing the gifts that have been given to me. It is me that sees a lack. I have everything I need. I have actually everything I want. I have been blessed a thousand times over, a thousand.
I guess every once in awhile we need to repack the suitcases of our hearts to realize just how much is in there.
1 comment:
Nice realization!! Similar situation under a different circumstance though...I have been away from my parents for about 14 years now (I do visit my parents once a year for one month, it is a different feeling during the times I spend at my parent's). I can very well relate to what you've beautifully written with a nice message to "repack the suitcases of our heart". The most merciful Lord has given us everything we need...we just need to look within ourselves. On a lighter note, I think it is time for me to repack or reorganize my suitcases too (I have like 3 I guess including a small box...), hopefully I will stop buying what I am thinking to buy this weekend...lol
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