I'm tired of drama. The last several months of 2014 there were many bouts of times when I was swimming in drama, exemplified by lots of crying with hot, sticky tears. Drama, to me, comes when I am harsh with myself, harsh with others, and let myself drown and wallow in painful tapes that no one loves me and I'm all alone in this world.
This Christmas Eve I attended midnight mass with Ghanashyam. Standing in the pews along with several hundred people in solemn quiet, I formulated a prayer from deep within: My Lord, free me of drama. I'm tired of drama.
I want peace. I want to be enlivened. All the energy I siphon into my own sad stories may I please offer this to You.
I prayed that this new year I would live and breathe the Serenity Prayer:
God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,
The courage to change the things I can,
And the wisdom to know the difference.
After that midnight mass, I decided that for the year 2015 I would write a blog post every month with the theme of this prayer.
I thought I'd begin with first diving a little into the nature of drama.
Welcome to the Serenity Series.
May this year the drama be confined to Broadway.
May this year be lived with serenity, courage, and wisdom.