Like a river flows
surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things
are meant to be...
I can't help falling in love with you.
I'm on the subway, listening to this song, and in the darkness of my closed eyelids, a glowing image emerges.
And while yes, that song does conjure up images of my beloved husband, Ghanashyam, another images always comes to the forefront.
My body goes still.
An image of statues emerges in the dark - one is of a young woman, the other a young man - and they're standing side by side, wearing lovely, draping silks. They glow. The woman is an iridescent, pearly white marble, her eyes luminous. The young man is of ebony marble, his arms forever poised to play a flute, his eyes reaching out through time and space. Their gazes touch mine.
A wave of emotion rolls over me and tears flow from my eyes.
The short song ends, I open my eyes to tap repeat on my phone and the wave of emotion dissipates. Then, the guitar begins, I close my eyes, and in the darkness of my closed eyelids, the glowing image emerges again.
I can't help it.
I just can't.
I can't help falling in love with you, God.
Radha and Krishna - Radhe Shyam.
Ever since I was a little girl, I've been gazing up at deities of Radha and Krishna, and in the eyes of an innocent girl the statues on the altar were simply God. There were no mind games and philosophical manipulations to wonder how God could fit on an altar and be four feet tall. God stood on that altar because that way we could see each other, and that reason made the most sense in the world to a little girl.
And to the woman I am now, I guess it still makes sense.
Now the altar is in my mind, and I can't help falling in love with those smiles. Those eyes.
When my stop comes, I open my eyes and the lights of 181st Street Station spill into my brain. I ride the wave of people who disembark the train. I wipe my cheeks of the wetness from the tears.
Unbidden, my mind jumps to the moment when I shall leave this world, and a profound peace falls over me. For maybe when I close my eyes for the last time, the image of Radhe Shyam shall be imprinted upon my closed eyelids.
God is magnificent, God is great, God is powerful. God makes the mountains tremble and the tsunamis crash and the earth spin and the sun blaze.
But God is also this beautiful boy along with a beautiful girl who smile at me in the dark and make me weep at their beauty. Krishna makes me fall in love with him, even in some underground tunnel riding a train.
So take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help
Falling in love
With you
https://youtu.be/D8pCv-eivqM
surely to the sea
darling so it goes
some things
are meant to be...
I can't help falling in love with you.
I'm on the subway, listening to this song, and in the darkness of my closed eyelids, a glowing image emerges.
And while yes, that song does conjure up images of my beloved husband, Ghanashyam, another images always comes to the forefront.
My body goes still.
An image of statues emerges in the dark - one is of a young woman, the other a young man - and they're standing side by side, wearing lovely, draping silks. They glow. The woman is an iridescent, pearly white marble, her eyes luminous. The young man is of ebony marble, his arms forever poised to play a flute, his eyes reaching out through time and space. Their gazes touch mine.
A wave of emotion rolls over me and tears flow from my eyes.
The short song ends, I open my eyes to tap repeat on my phone and the wave of emotion dissipates. Then, the guitar begins, I close my eyes, and in the darkness of my closed eyelids, the glowing image emerges again.
I can't help it.
I just can't.
I can't help falling in love with you, God.
Radha and Krishna - Radhe Shyam.
Ever since I was a little girl, I've been gazing up at deities of Radha and Krishna, and in the eyes of an innocent girl the statues on the altar were simply God. There were no mind games and philosophical manipulations to wonder how God could fit on an altar and be four feet tall. God stood on that altar because that way we could see each other, and that reason made the most sense in the world to a little girl.
And to the woman I am now, I guess it still makes sense.
Now the altar is in my mind, and I can't help falling in love with those smiles. Those eyes.
When my stop comes, I open my eyes and the lights of 181st Street Station spill into my brain. I ride the wave of people who disembark the train. I wipe my cheeks of the wetness from the tears.
Unbidden, my mind jumps to the moment when I shall leave this world, and a profound peace falls over me. For maybe when I close my eyes for the last time, the image of Radhe Shyam shall be imprinted upon my closed eyelids.
God is magnificent, God is great, God is powerful. God makes the mountains tremble and the tsunamis crash and the earth spin and the sun blaze.
But God is also this beautiful boy along with a beautiful girl who smile at me in the dark and make me weep at their beauty. Krishna makes me fall in love with him, even in some underground tunnel riding a train.
So take my hand
Take my whole life too
For I can't help
Falling in love
With you
https://youtu.be/D8pCv-eivqM
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