Monday, February 22, 2010

Let It Be

Several nights ago I took a japa walk along the temple road. My mind was on my spiritual master, Radhanath Swami, and I wished that I could be wherever he was.

I turned a bend in the road where the trees parted, and the universe unfolded above me to glitter in breathtaking silence. I halted in my footsteps, stunned. Suddenly, a wave of helplessness washed over me:

I miss my spiritual master, I miss Radhanath Swami, but there is absolutely nothing I can do about it. Nothing. He's across the world... as far as the moon... and I'm here. 

So I stood there under the stars, just stood there. Then I knelt to the ground and buried my head in my hands.

And I realized that that was a glimpse of how I will feel when my spiritual master leaves this world.

1 comment:

Ramya said...

Haribol! Dandavat Pranam!
Hey Bhakti,sometimes i feel the same,it's kinda scary.
You know i along with around 100 other devotees was supposed to get initiated next month, got cancelled due to certain constraints.I know now how you feel.....

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