This man has fallen to his knees for forty years. He's been sober for forty years.
In connection with chanting the holy name, I realize that I'm that alcoholic. I've been in a space where I haven't chanted japa, and I never want to go back.
So I need to fall to my knees. I need to BEG God every single morning to please allow me to chant His name sincerely for that day, for every day, for all of my life.
So I need to fall to my knees. I need to BEG God every single morning to please allow me to chant His name sincerely for that day, for every day, for all of my life.
Some people can be sober their whole life with no problem, just like there are people who can chant their rounds every day on the simple merit of regularity. It's a non-issue.
But I'm like the alcoholic. I am in danger of falling away every single day. I need to pray every single day for God's grace to allow me to even wake up in the morning, to even pick up my beads, to even utter one syllable.
And every morning, before I chant, I fall to the floor and I pray to Krishna: Please allow me to chant Your name today. Give me the strength to make it through this one day.
Just this one day.
Just this one day.
1 comment:
A nice mood you've got. The inability to chant japa (or perform other limbs of bhakti for that matter) stems from the presence of anarthas (unwanted things wuk other than bhakti). Only by the association of pure devotees do they go away. satam prasngan mama virya samvido (SB). Bhakti is never produced but rather it descends from those who have it.
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